LAUNCH COMING SOON!!!

I am actually pretty excited about this but we are about to launch!  Keep you guys posted on updates but ETA should be the latter part of this month, early next month. 

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Life, what a journey

I haven’t blogged in a long time and it is long overdue.  For those that are close to me my father passed away a few months ago due to a second stroke.  Ive been wanting to write for a long time but to be honest just haven’t been able to gather my thoughts without just writing something in haste.  I used to be able to write and been able to control my emotions when I was down or depressed but this is just different.   But I think im ready now.   A little background of my father, the dude was super strict to the point where you would think he was nuts.  But to be honest I wouldn’t of had it any other way.  With my personality I was always getting into trouble.  I was always getting into the wrong crowd.  Ive had my run ins with the law when I was younger to the point where I had to be sent to a different school.  Although I probably wouldn’t try to employ my dad’s teachings in certain scenarios but there was no denying… the guy had our backs.  He loved us like no other.  Whenever I got into trouble, where I was obviously wrong he would always be there for support.  He would punish me in other ways but to this day that is the reason why I am what I am.  My friends that are really close to me I know have my back through thick and thin.  And that’s one key quality I look for to completely trust someone.  

 

I didn’t really want to talk about poker right now, but I think a lot of the reason why I have been so successful at it was because ever since I was young ive had to “level” my dad.  He was always angry and I would always need to find ways to keep him in equilibrium.  Spill water, o shit your getting fcked up, break something your getting fcked up.  So ever since I was young I was always trying to get reads, figured out what set him off and what kept him happy.  After his first stroke 16 years ago whenever I would come home he would never be mad.  But my mom recently told me that he was always mad haha.  I just knew how to deal with him.  My dad had this dark humor/ sarcasm and every time I went home I never really took anything seriously.   Now when I play poker I feel like I can dictate a conversation as to where I want it to go and the same thing goes for when im playing live.

 * dont know when this was taken but my dad loved chess, he was very patient like myself hahah* a gamer

My mom, now that’s one strong woman.  To put up what she was able to put up with and to still be in love with someone to me was absolutely incredible. I went home recently and she showed me the stone she made and when she passes she wants to be buried right on top of him with space on the stone for her as well. My mom is an incredible person and I have nothing bad to say about her.  Without her my dad wouldn’t have lasted as long as he did, I really believe that.  16 years in the condition he was in and to keep him going that long was a feat in itself.  My dad wasn’t supposed to make it very long after the first time but he did, and only because of my mom.  She was with him to the very end.  Man, she is such a strong person it was incredible what she had to go through.  Trying to take care of my dad when he was in hospice and trying to calm her kids down as well. I was drinking pretty much every day because it was just getting to me.  Did I cry, yes… but I did that in my car and never showed that to my dad because he NEVER wanted us to show any weakness.  He brought us up to be tough as nails so whenever I was around and he would open his eyes I tried to be calm and collect my emotions so he knows ill be okay.  I said what I had to say though, I said I love you and prayed for him.  Was with him to the very end, to the very last breathe till he left his shell.  “I love you dad, I pray for you every day still you are missed”.

                                         * my mom taking care of my dad to the very end*

A few days earlier we tried to get a load off and it was my niece’s b day.  Isn’t life incredible, one life ends and another one basically begins.  The constant cycle of life, that’s why you should never take it for granted .   Spend time with your family and people that are close to you.  Let them know how much you care because you never know when its your time.  Leave positive impressions in people’s life and always treat others the way you would like to be treated. 

It was hard to see my dad buried.  I know it was just a shell of him and he is with us in spirit.  My dads death got everyone together again.  We did novena, got together to watch the boxing fights…. Theres always someone over kickin’ it with my mom.  Our home is very welcoming, when I got it for my mom years ago we always wanted to make improvements but never really got around to it.  Now she has a bunch of trees out there and wants to fix the pool because that’s what my dad wanted.  Its just good to see everyone together.  When I went to college I felt liberated and just lost track of what was most important.  I wish I went home more because family is everything.  No offense to my friends or anything but there were weeks where I could have laid off getting fcked up and just going home and hanging out.  So for the few people that read this if your going to learn anything from this post just remember this.  I always tell my fiancé, hang out with your dad.  Hang out with him instead of me that’s fine… family first.

One thing im sad about is that my dad won’t be able to make it to my wedding, physically.  I know he will be there in spirit but im still saving a seat for him right next to my mom.  He’s still getting his order and still going to be watching over me and the love of my life.  God works in mysterious ways but he had a plan and it was just my dad’s time.  

SUPER(SCAM)WIN poker

For those of you that have not heard theres a new skin called SUPERWINS poker.   Multiple sources tie this to Lock poker and those of you unfamiliar with the situation know that people that have been playing on that site have not been getting paid.   This is a shame and from what I read the guy that runs this is an affiliate of Lock poker which to me basically seals the deal in providing enough evidence that anyone is ever going to get any money back (not that there wasn’t any before).   They are just trying to milk people for money, maybe pay a few cashouts here and there but the end result will be the same.  Wait time of a year and over.  

Its just so sick how people can do this and get away with it in plain site.  Its just a total scum bag move on their part on how much deception has been going on since the site has been up.  Its probably just run by a bunch of douche bag losers that cant think of anything else to do but jack players that are just trying to get on for fun.  I say that because that’s the only kind of player that’s going to sign up on theyre site.  The kind of player that just doesn’t know any better and that doesn’t know what’s going on.  Sorry to everyone that has money tied up on lock but as far as getting any kind of money back that’s just not going to happen.   This is just another black eye for poker and we have lock poker to thank for it.  Superwin poker is a huge gamble, play at your own risk.

WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU GO ON TILT!!!

 TILT!!!!ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

It happens to almost every poker player.  The dreaded word TILT, and wanted to know how you guys react to it.  I never really thought about this in depth but since im blogging I can actually collect my thoughts and think about the things I do.  So here is an unedited rant:  

One thing that gets me on tilt of course is losing more buyins then I should.  There are a few specific sessions that for me that could have been disastrous.  You know how there is categories of what kind of players there are whether it be “fish” “nit” “whale” etc etc.  There should be color coding on sites that change a players color when you think they are on tilt haha.  But probably a few years in to when I started online poker I was the type of person that would tilt UP.  This means I would jump stakes and theres this one particular time on Fulltilt poker where I did just that.  I started at 200nl and was losing, I think I was down a grand so I decided to go to 400nl and chase my losses.  I think by 600 hands I was suck close to 3k total.  I was fcking steaming!!! So I decided to jump stakes again and try to win that back and play a little 2knl 6max. Keep in mind that I was a fullring grinder and one of the first times that I sit in 6 max im buying in for 2k.  Basically to make a long story short I stack off with A 10 with 2 A A brick brick iirc.  Villian had 222 so there goes another stack.  So im down 5k and by the time I got off all my tables im stuck close to 7k.  Im probably only like 1500 hands in and decide fck it, cant move down to make this shit back gotta move up.  So I sit at 5knl (6max) deep lol.  So I buy in for 10k rofl at an empty table and it fills up real fast HAHA.  YES I GOT ACTION.  So im sitting there steaming with 10k at 5k 6mx and a few hands in I get J 10.  I think it was 250 to me and I call.  Flop was Q K x.  And I donk lead like an idiot into the raiser hahaha and of course he raises me to like 1500 and I call with my straight draw.  I turn it and I just shove like a fish.  He tanks for awhile and calls me with AA and boom….13k pot lol. So what turned out to be a bad set ended up to be a not so bad set.  I think I was 1600 hands in and I was now only down 1.6-1.8k and decided to just get off.  I could have been down a lot more but after that set I learned my lesson.  A fellow grinder who I turned out to be good friends with Tulegit21 got mad at me because he looked on PTR and replayed my disastrous play and asked me WTF was I thinking.  Ill always remember that set and told myself I would never do that again.

Other bad habits that I used to have was throwing shit around.  Whatever was around me I would toss or break because I was so upset.  I didn’t care who was around me.  If people were over I wont still slam the table or slow a jar of jelly bellies haha.  See below - But I don’t do much of that anymore.  I think I broke a mouse recently but at least I thought about not throwing it even though I did it anyways. 

Another kind of tilt I go through is when someone is trying to talk to me when im playing.  Im hella focusing and your asking me a question… ugh.  I don’t get mad but inside im steaming.  I cant get mad AT the person though because it’s a stupid reason to get over so sometimes I either lighten my load and play less tables or just get off altogether.  So I figured out the solution to that problem which isn’t really a solution but it’s the best I can come up with.  

PRESENT DAY TILT reform!!!

I still go on tilt to this day but not because of how much I lose but because I made a play or made a mistake in a particular hand.  That’s what makes me tilt now more then anything is if I fck up on a certain hand.  There are some things in poker that you cannot control but the things you can you have to maximize your value in those spots.  So I think ive grown in this aspect from that dreaded day on FTP haha.  So my advice to anyone reading this post is to just try to stay controlled and don’t let your emotions get the best of you.  It can turn the best player in the worst player and the nittiest player into the biggest fish.

Haters ... and 2p2

Got an interesting infraction the other day on 2p2.  I dont blame the MODs or anything because they are just doing theyre job and due their due diligence when things are reported.  2p2 shows who reported your post said i was spamming.  That My Logo is a direct link to our website (which its not).  But thats not the interesting things its the guy that reported it is whats interesting.  Another affiliate on some other site.  You can Skype me, email me and I will out his name because he is bad for the game.
DMS is a site me and a partner created to help players with theyre issues.  Again the market is rough and any kind of help is good help.  We are not in it for the money, yes we do receive a cut but we max out every deal a player can receive + extra.  So we give you the best deal out there.  But this fcking douchebag reports me for having my logo up.  Its funny cause he has a similar logo up, Lets call him "K" for now to make things easier.  On his profile he "ignores trolls" which is quite funny because I have spoken to this douche before.  Just another affiliate that probably barely grinds and just out there to make his cut of the pie not giving a shit about his clients.  How annoying, like I said if you find a good affiliate, whether its DMS or not just stick to them because they are hard to find. 

... Reminiscing ... time flies

LINK TO MY PREVIOUS BLOG

Looking back at how I used to think, its always good to go back and REMINISCE.  Time goes by so fast.  Trying to reconnect with everyone cause I MISS EVERYONE.  Im reading blogs and people i know (used to know) must share the same feeling as me... TIME FLIES.  Poker wise, people that are still in the game have moved up stakes (some significantly, some have won BRACELETS and some well... have gone completely busto.  

This makes me think about my favorite trilogy of all time -

 Anything you guys would change if you can go back, and in this case see in your future??