I am actually pretty excited about this but we are about to launch! Keep you guys posted on updates but ETA should be the latter part of this month, early next month.
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In the head of a in "real life" POKER GRINDER
Wednesday, August 13, 2014
Sunday, July 13, 2014
Life, what a journey
I haven’t blogged in a long time and it is long
overdue. For those that are close
to me my father passed away a few months ago due to a second stroke. Ive been wanting to write for a long
time but to be honest just haven’t been able to gather my thoughts without just
writing something in haste. I used
to be able to write and been able to control my emotions when I was down or
depressed but this is just different. But I think im ready now. A little background of my father, the dude was super
strict to the point where you would think he was nuts. But to be honest I wouldn’t of had it
any other way. With my personality
I was always getting into trouble.
I was always getting into the wrong crowd. Ive had my run ins with the law when I was younger to the
point where I had to be sent to a different school. Although I probably wouldn’t try to employ my dad’s
teachings in certain scenarios but there was no denying… the guy had our backs. He loved us like no other. Whenever I got into trouble, where I
was obviously wrong he would always be there for support. He would punish me in other ways but to
this day that is the reason why I am what I am. My friends that are really close to me I know have my back
through thick and thin. And that’s
one key quality I look for to completely trust someone.
I didn’t really want to talk about poker right now, but I
think a lot of the reason why I have been so successful at it was because ever
since I was young ive had to “level” my dad. He was always angry and I would always need to find ways to
keep him in equilibrium. Spill
water, o shit your getting fcked up, break something your getting fcked
up. So ever since I was young I
was always trying to get reads, figured out what set him off and what kept him
happy. After his first stroke 16
years ago whenever I would come home he would never be mad. But my mom recently told me that he was
always mad haha. I just knew how
to deal with him. My dad had this
dark humor/ sarcasm and every time I went home I never really took anything
seriously. Now when I play
poker I feel like I can dictate a conversation as to where I want it to go and
the same thing goes for when im playing live.
* dont know when this was taken but my dad loved chess, he was very patient like myself hahah* a gamer
My mom, now that’s one strong woman. To put up what she was able to put up
with and to still be in love with someone to me was absolutely incredible. I
went home recently and she showed me the stone she made and when she passes she
wants to be buried right on top of him with space on the stone for her as well.
My mom is an incredible person and I have nothing bad to say about her. Without her my dad wouldn’t have lasted
as long as he did, I really believe that.
16 years in the condition he was in and to keep him going that long was
a feat in itself. My dad wasn’t
supposed to make it very long after the first time but he did, and only because
of my mom. She was with him to the
very end. Man, she is such a
strong person it was incredible what she had to go through. Trying to take care of my dad when he
was in hospice and trying to calm her kids down as well. I was drinking pretty
much every day because it was just getting to me. Did I cry, yes… but I did that in my car and never showed
that to my dad because he NEVER wanted us to show any weakness. He brought us up to be tough as nails
so whenever I was around and he would open his eyes I tried to be calm and
collect my emotions so he knows ill be okay. I said what I had to say though, I said I love you and
prayed for him. Was with him to
the very end, to the very last breathe till he left his shell. “I love you dad, I pray for you every
day still you are missed”.
* my mom taking care of my dad to the very end*
A few days earlier we tried to get a load off and it was my
niece’s b day. Isn’t life
incredible, one life ends and another one basically begins. The constant cycle of life, that’s why
you should never take it for granted . Spend time with your family and people that are close
to you. Let them know how much you
care because you never know when its your time. Leave positive impressions in people’s life and always treat
others the way you would like to be treated.
It was hard to see my dad buried. I know it was just a shell of him and he is with us in
spirit. My dads death got everyone
together again. We did novena, got
together to watch the boxing fights…. Theres always someone over kickin’ it
with my mom. Our home is very
welcoming, when I got it for my mom years ago we always wanted to make
improvements but never really got around to it. Now she has a bunch of trees out there and wants to fix the
pool because that’s what my dad wanted.
Its just good to see everyone together. When I went to college I felt liberated and just lost track
of what was most important. I wish
I went home more because family is everything. No offense to my friends or anything but there were weeks
where I could have laid off getting fcked up and just going home and hanging
out. So for the few people that
read this if your going to learn anything from this post just remember this. I always tell my fiancé, hang out with
your dad. Hang out with him
instead of me that’s fine… family first.
One thing im sad about is that my dad won’t be able to make
it to my wedding, physically. I
know he will be there in spirit but im still saving a seat for him right next
to my mom. He’s still getting his
order and still going to be watching over me and the love of my life. God works in mysterious ways but he had
a plan and it was just my dad’s time.
Wednesday, March 12, 2014
SUPER(SCAM)WIN poker
For those of you that have not heard theres a new skin
called SUPERWINS poker. Multiple
sources tie this to Lock poker and those of you unfamiliar with the situation know
that people that have been playing on that site have not been getting
paid. This is a shame and from what I
read the guy that runs this is an affiliate of Lock poker which to me basically
seals the deal in providing enough evidence that anyone is ever going to get
any money back (not that there wasn’t any before). They are just trying to milk people for
money, maybe pay a few cashouts here and there but the end result will be the
same. Wait time of a year and over.
Its just so sick how people can do this and get away with it
in plain site. Its just a total scum bag
move on their part on how much deception has been going on since the site has
been up. Its probably just run by a
bunch of douche bag losers that cant think of anything else to do but jack
players that are just trying to get on for fun.
I say that because that’s the only kind of player that’s going to sign
up on theyre site. The kind of player
that just doesn’t know any better and that doesn’t know what’s going on. Sorry to everyone that has money tied up on
lock but as far as getting any kind of money back that’s just not going to
happen. This is just another black eye
for poker and we have lock poker to thank for it. Superwin poker is a huge gamble, play at your own risk.
Wednesday, March 5, 2014
WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU GO ON TILT!!!
TILT!!!!ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
It happens to almost every poker player. The dreaded word TILT, and wanted to know how
you guys react to it. I never really
thought about this in depth but since im blogging I can actually collect my
thoughts and think about the things I do.
So here is an unedited rant:
One thing that gets me on tilt of course is losing more
buyins then I should. There are a few
specific sessions that for me that could have been disastrous. You know how there is categories of what kind
of players there are whether it be “fish” “nit” “whale” etc etc. There should be color coding on sites that
change a players color when you think they are on tilt haha. But probably a few years in to when I started
online poker I was the type of person that would tilt UP. This means I would jump stakes and theres
this one particular time on Fulltilt poker where I did just that. I started at 200nl and was losing, I think I was
down a grand so I decided to go to 400nl and chase my losses. I think by 600 hands I was suck close to 3k
total. I was fcking steaming!!! So I decided
to jump stakes again and try to win that back and play a little 2knl 6max. Keep
in mind that I was a fullring grinder and one of the first times that I sit in
6 max im buying in for 2k. Basically to
make a long story short I stack off with A 10 with 2 A A brick brick iirc. Villian had 222 so there goes another
stack. So im down 5k and by the time I got
off all my tables im stuck close to 7k.
Im probably only like 1500 hands in and decide fck it, cant move down to
make this shit back gotta move up. So I sit
at 5knl (6max) deep lol. So I buy in for
10k rofl at an empty table and it fills up real fast HAHA. YES I GOT ACTION. So im sitting there steaming with 10k at 5k
6mx and a few hands in I get J 10. I think
it was 250 to me and I call. Flop was Q
K x. And I donk lead like an idiot into
the raiser hahaha and of course he raises me to like 1500 and I call with my
straight draw. I turn it and I just
shove like a fish. He tanks for awhile
and calls me with AA and boom….13k pot lol. So what turned out to be a bad set
ended up to be a not so bad set. I think
I was 1600 hands in and I was now only down 1.6-1.8k and decided to just get
off. I could have been down a lot more
but after that set I learned my lesson.
A fellow grinder who I turned out to be good friends with Tulegit21 got
mad at me because he looked on PTR and replayed my disastrous play and asked me
WTF was I thinking. Ill always remember
that set and told myself I would never do that again.
Other bad habits that I used to have was throwing shit
around. Whatever was around me I would
toss or break because I was so upset. I didn’t
care who was around me. If people were
over I wont still slam the table or slow a jar of jelly bellies haha. See below - But I don’t do much of that anymore. I think I broke a mouse recently but at least
I thought about not throwing it even though I did it anyways.
Another kind of tilt I go through is when someone is trying
to talk to me when im playing. Im hella
focusing and your asking me a question… ugh.
I don’t get mad but inside im steaming.
I cant get mad AT the person though because it’s a stupid reason to get
over so sometimes I either lighten my load and play less tables or just get off
altogether. So I figured out the
solution to that problem which isn’t really a solution but it’s the best I can
come up with.
PRESENT DAY TILT reform!!!
PRESENT DAY TILT reform!!!
I still go on tilt to this day but not because of how much I
lose but because I made a play or made a mistake in a particular hand. That’s what makes me tilt now more then
anything is if I fck up on a certain hand.
There are some things in poker that you cannot control but the things
you can you have to maximize your value in those spots. So I think ive grown in this aspect from that
dreaded day on FTP haha. So my advice to
anyone reading this post is to just try to stay controlled and don’t let your
emotions get the best of you. It can
turn the best player in the worst player and the nittiest player into the
biggest fish.
Monday, February 24, 2014
Haters ... and 2p2
DMS is a site me and a partner created to help players with theyre issues. Again the market is rough and any kind of help is good help. We are not in it for the money, yes we do receive a cut but we max out every deal a player can receive + extra. So we give you the best deal out there. But this fcking douchebag reports me for having my logo up. Its funny cause he has a similar logo up, Lets call him "K" for now to make things easier. On his profile he "ignores trolls" which is quite funny because I have spoken to this douche before. Just another affiliate that probably barely grinds and just out there to make his cut of the pie not giving a shit about his clients. How annoying, like I said if you find a good affiliate, whether its DMS or not just stick to them because they are hard to find.
Tuesday, February 18, 2014
... Reminiscing ... time flies
LINK TO MY PREVIOUS BLOG
This makes me think about my favorite trilogy of all time -
Anything you guys would change if you can go back, and in this case see in your future??
This makes me think about my favorite trilogy of all time -
Anything you guys would change if you can go back, and in this case see in your future??
Thursday, December 19, 2013
Poker - Prioritize your Health
Poker and the importance of being healthy,
Something
that I have not practiced until recently and it shows in your results.
Ive seen it from both ends, the mindless unhealthy grind, party
lifestyle to my present day poker, diet and working out. One graph goes
up and the other looks like you threw a rock down a cliff. You should
never sacrifice your health for anything. Im not trying to preach this,
but its something that everyone should be doing. Taking care of your
body will help you grind better, be more alert and just overall feel
much better. As opposed to having redbulls, pizza, and sitting on your
chair grinding for 16 hrs a day. That shit will put you to your grave
early. My schedule is getting 8 hours of sleep. Before I would get
between 0-4 hrs a day for my 3 year elite run. I also cook most of my
meals and if I do go out i try to stay healthy as well. I do crossfit
and have always tried to work out but right now I have to say im in the
best shape of my life. When I was working out when I was mass grinding
it would not be as effective in that I didnt get enough sleep or didnt
eat right. I mean dont get me wrong an occasional splurge of some
burgers and fries with some beer can be a reward for a good week. No
need to go crazy on this but just have a good balance and incorporate a
good diet and exercise. And everyone pleeeeeeeease drop the soda and
substitute it with something else. In my posts ill try to give out
health tips to help you guys grind.
Health tip of the week-
On my desk I have a hand gripper machine. I wish I practiced this earlier but it helps. I mean who wants carpal tunnel?
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